Hi ladies, it would be so much easier for me to talk in English with you, following up my previous subject in Personal stories, yes, I enjoyed being with women, having sex with them much more than men. But I am still trying to figure out my orientation, seems like nothing in this world that makes me happy and fullfilled. I want to be with a woman, I prefer mature women, who at least 10 years older than me, but I am so afraid. Maybe someone on here with the right advise will help me to move on, change my life.

Could you give us a link or something?
I'm kind of new here and I have no idea what topic you are talking about )) But I do want to help you. You sound kind of desperate...